Not enough....

Is it just me? Does anybody else feel like they should be doing more, giving up more, experiencing suffering more?
Maybe it's just me. Maybe it comes from my tendency to do everything to an extreme. I know... I know... I struggle with balance.
But sometimes when I read about Adoniram Judson, or William Tyndale, or Amy Carmichael, or Gladys Aylward... or when I watch things like this...

I question my heart.
How surrendered am I? Somewhere tonight in Asia, an eight year old girl's innocence will be sold for $12. Somewhere in Africa a six year old child is now the sole provider for his younger siblings. Don't read into what I write... I'm not saying the purpose of me being on this earth is to provide solely for physical needs... but what I am saying is this: If my Father's heart breaks for them... shouldn't mine too? And if my Father loves them and gave up his very own Son for them... shouldn't I be willing to give up everything I have so that they can know Him?
It makes sense to me...
Call me crazy. Label me whatever you'd like... but this I know: I've told the Lord that my life is His. I've got nothing worth living for here. No family of my own. No husband and children to care for. So I've told the Lord this: My life is His...to do as He pleases. Whether that is a "normal" life... or something altogether different.
This burden/desire is frustrating.
But I'll take frustrated over depraved indifference anyday.